Our imperfect mess of happy

While spending a little quality time with a couple of my closest friends the other night, we began talking about blogging and how almost all posts only highlight the "perfect" side of life. Yes, life is beautiful, and yes, I am extremely happy with where my life is right now. However, it's not always all unicorns and glitter like our blog portrays. That being said, have a peak at our real world.

It really goes like this. If it isn't 'Cleaning Thursday' then you can almost always count on the house being a disaster. This includes a random dirty diaper that somehow got left behind in the chaos of trying to get out the door in the morning. Laundry that is piled sky high because, frankly, I don't enjoy doing laundry until absolutely necessary. Dishes that have been waiting  to be washed for a day or two, and a bathroom floor that is dying to be mopped. 

We are boring. If it isn't work hours, you can always find us at home. Zac will be watching some sort of sport or "believe it or not" show on television. I will be in the kitchen either sitting at the table crafting or cooking dinner. Drayze will be crawling all over the place playing with toys; toys that are constantly scattered throughout the entire house. Our weekends usually are only exciting as getting a Redbox and having a mixed drink. Very seldom do we go do anything. Not only because we are home bodies, but because usually we are  pinching our pennies. 

We go to our average jobs, we make our money, we pay our bills {mostly on time}, we feed and diaper our son. At the end of that, we {frugally} wait for the next pay day. 

We just get through the motions of day to day life. Zacary hates his job, and I will never be able to find a baby sitter who is 'good enough'. He eats his food too loud, and she cries over dumbest things far too often. Drayze can have days where he is a constant cry baby and nights he refuses to sleep. So, unless you're peaking in our window while we are not looking, our life is not as put together as we try to make it appear. But who's life is? We are all just average people who naturally mask our own lives to look perfect.

A typical no-work morning during Drayze's nap time. It does not take Zacary by surprise if when he gets home at 5, I am still in my pajamas. 

Notice the laundry on the couch waiting to be folded? It's Thursday, that has been sitting there since Sunday. Lazy? Maybe. I blame it more on my hatred for doing laundry. ;)

Just a typical day picture. 

"No way," he says. Getting this boy to eat his veggies is already a struggle at 7.5 months!

Above all else, we get along extremely well, we work together as a team, we laugh together, and motivate each other. We are a chaotic mess of happy! 💙

The Importance of Change

"For what it's worth: it's never too late, or in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There's no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best, or take the worst of it. I hope you make the best. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you are proud of. If you find that you're not, I hope you have the courage to start all over again."  -Eric Roth; Benjamin Button

Change is not an easy thing, but boy how it happens without you hardly even knowing it. Sometimes the past isn't a proud place to look back on, but if it weren't for our past trials, where would we be today? For this, I thank the ugly past times and wouldn't change a thing. 

A younger {high school} me was a time when I knew it all, was always right, and knew what I wanted in life. Turns out I was as naive as the rest. However, this ignorance eventually landed me the most perfect man {for me}! 

Allow me to explain. When I "knew what I wanted" ironically enough, I learned exactly what I did not want. Not only that, I learned exactly who I did not want to be. When I {finally} woke up and realized this, I made the changes. The most difficult changes thus far in my life. I finally gained the courge to change the life I found I was not happy with. The most beneficial changes thus far in my life. If I wouldn't have experienced these not-so-wonderful times I wouldn't have appreciated meeting a man who knows how to treat a woman. A gentleman. A sincerly sweet guy. I also, wouldn't have learned the importance of my role in a relationship. 

I learned it is just as important for the woman to make the man feel important and loved. I need to contribute emotionally, physically, and financially. A man has many needs as a woman just in different {yet similar} ways. Learning this changed my life, for the better!

We {as a couple} continue to grow, learn, and change every single day. I tip my hat to our past times as I believe this is what makes our relationship as perfect as I believe it is. We have slim to none arguments and disagreements. We can read each other when no words are spoken. When miles apart we can sense our other halfs emotions. We truly have a unique relationship. One I would not {will not} EVER trade for anything in the world.

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!!

Growth!

Drayze is growing big and smart faster than we can keep up with. Watching him learn is the most amazing thing we have ever witnessed. I whole heartedly believe babies are smarter than adults! When he was just two months old I knew I needed to track his growth because of how incredible it is, and because I knew there was no way we would be able to remember everything. We were given a cute chalkboard for our wedding. This was perfect!

Baby boy is now 7 months old. I can't believe it!!! From 5-7 months he has done most of his learning. He can army crawl so quick, sit up all by himself, and LOVES to play with toys. He is learning to clap and wave. He can feed himself and is even eating crackers now. He says momma and dada so clear, and will reach for us if he wants to be held. He has two adorable teeth and is looking more and more like his daddy. He is a momma's boy, but definitely gets excited when daddy gets home from work. 

I hate that time is going too fast, but I can't wait to see what else my boy will learn!

Parents are strange

It's no secret I love being a mommy. It is, with out a doubt, the most incredible experience life can offer any one person. If you would have asked me a few short years ago, children were not in my near future plans. In fact, a husband didn't even make the cut back then. Boy how things change!

I am forever blessed by the changes my husband and sweet baby boy have inspired me to make. They continue to inspire me to become best me I can be. I surprise myself daily by the patience I have gained, the things I get excited about, the weird things that make me emotional and the small things I no longer sweat. 

Just the other day, while doing my makeup and watching Drayze get in to everything through the reflection of the mirror, I noticed he had sat up on his bum from his belly all by himself! The second I saw this I threw whatever makeup I had in my hands in excitement, grabbed my baby to tell him how proud of him I was, and of course a few happy tears fell from my eyes. This totally caught me off guard. Who would have thought something so simple would excite me so much? The things motherhood will do to you! 

Another example of the strange behavior parenthood causes happened a few nights ago. {The following story js a bit graphic. Weak stomachs do not read on} As I was holding Drayze while Zac was talking to him, suddenly baby boy became sick to his stomach resulting in a fountain of vomit. Normally when you're in a person's line of vomit you get out of the way as quickly as possible. Apparently not when you're a parent. Both of our first reaction was to try to catch the vomit in our hands and make sure Drayze was ok. After things settled down, I pointed out to Zac the silly way parenthood makes us act.

Ya know, when I was pregnant with Drayze I remember being absolutely terrified of becoming a mother. I was afraid I wasn't going to have patience, or know what I was doing. Since he has been born most things seem to come naturally. If they don't, we do our best to figure it out. By no means are we perfect parents. Drayze has fallen off the bed twice, I forgot to buckle his car seat one car ride home, and zac has forgotten the diaper when putting on baby's pjs. We may not have it down, but we are getting it. It is an amazing journey to say the least. My biggest blessing. 

Parenthood. 

Blurry, but I LOVE that look!

When he sat up all by himself!

Getting in to EVERYTHING 24/7

(I complain, but really I love it)

Nothing like it. Seriously, when I think about how much I love these two my heart literally gets heavy.